I don't know who I am. I'm not sure if that's something that people usually say out loud, but it's true. I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the person staring back at me. I don't mean that in a literal sense, of course. I know what I look like. But I don't know who I am on the inside.
I don't know what I like, what I believe in, what I want out of life. I feel like I'm just going through the motions, living a life that's been prescribed for me by society or by my family or by some other external force. But I don't feel like it's my life. I feel like I'm just a passenger on this journey, watching it all go by without really participating.
It's a strange feeling, not knowing who you are. It's like being lost in a maze, trying to find your way out but not even sure where to begin. I envy people who seem to have it all figured out, who know exactly who they are and what they want. I wonder how they got there. Did they always know? Did they have some sort of epiphany that I missed?
I don't think I'm alone in feeling this way. I think a lot of people struggle with identity, with figuring out who they are and what they want. It's a natural part of the human experience, I suppose. But it's also a frustrating one.
I want to know who I am. I want to feel like I'm living my own life, not just following someone else's script. I want to have a sense of purpose, a sense of direction. But I don't know how to get there.
Maybe it starts with asking myself some tough questions. What do I value? What makes me happy? What am I passionate about? Maybe if I can answer those questions, I'll start to get a better sense of who I am.
Or maybe it starts with taking some risks, stepping outside of my comfort zone, trying new things. Maybe I'll discover something about myself that I never knew before.
I don't know. But I do know that I can't keep living like this, feeling lost and directionless. I need to find my way, find myself. And maybe, just maybe, in doing so, I'll find some peace.
- Sarah
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